tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2009-11-08:/Its going to be about everything and anything.As it says speaking my mind =PMokoFeed2009-11-08T10:01:39+01:00tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-24:/2008/08/24/love-him-4628867/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-24T04:10:43+02:002008-08-24T04:10:43+02:00 <p>Well as of the 8/1/08 I have been dating this guy named Christopher.<br>I knew him very little when we first started dating,but now I'm learning more and more about him as we go on longer and longer.Chris lives in London,and I live in the US.We have never met,but we started to love each other before that.That has to count for something.To be able to love through a long distance,and never get the urge to cheat,or cheat period!<br>I love him so much.I've been looking for a guy to love,and be happy with.I think I've found him.I may be young to be talking about this kind of stuff.But I know what I'm talking about.I've loved and lost,and matured at an early age due to moving out of my dads at 8 and living with my mom always,and always home alone.It's taught me alot.I grew up faster than people would like to think.I've been asked to get married before,and as you can see I turned them down because,now I'm with the love of my life Chris.<br>I have never felt the way I do for him,for anyone else.And the fact that our bond stays strong even over 2seas,and in different countries is truly saying something for me.Usually my relationships dont last long because one way or the other "someone looses interest".<br>But thankfully it hasnt happened between Chris and me.I hope it never does.<br>I love him for everything that he is.He's like Mr.Perfect to me.I see no flaws in him in my eyes,and I'm glad for that.<br>He's my life,and my love.I hope to one day be with him in full form.I just hope he doesnt lose interest in me like everyone else...</p> <p>well here comes the love icons <3(their about how I think and feel-and want to do)</p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img src="http://dl5.glitter-graphics.net/pub/1520/1520525gxexk1x92c.gif" border="0" alt="" width="65" height="39"></a></p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img src="http://dl10.glitter-graphics.net/pub/521/521340z9zwo5moqh.gif" border="0" alt="" width="96" height="96"></a></p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img src="http://dl9.glitter-graphics.net/pub/395/395139zj1qrat886.png" border="0" alt="" width="100" height="100"></a></p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img src="http://dl7.glitter-graphics.net/pub/565/565227dhq4hbt1rl.gif" border="0" alt="" width="160" height="128"></a><br><a href="http://www.glitter-works.org">glitter-graphics.com</a></p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img src="http://dl7.glitter-graphics.net/pub/475/475347yy0k9hubtd.jpg" border="0" alt="" width="528" height="240"></a><br><a href="http://www.glitter-works.org">glitter-graphics.com</a></p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img 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href="http://www.glitter-works.org">glitter-graphics.com</a></p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img src="http://dl.glitter-graphics.net/pub/210/210481yr07zva2g6.jpg" border="0" alt="" width="300" height="282"></a><br><a href="http://www.glitter-works.org">glitter-graphics.com</a></p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img src="http://dl.glitter-graphics.net/pub/973/973401u1x337juy8.gif" border="0" alt="" width="326" height="352"></a><br><a href="http://www.glitter-works.org">glitter-graphics.com</a></p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img src="http://dl9.glitter-graphics.net/pub/551/551469s6uvjtrqia.jpg" border="0" alt="" width="200" height="155"></a><br><a href="http://www.glitter-works.org">glitter-graphics.com</a></p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img src="http://dl5.glitter-graphics.net/pub/529/529405jhe8ne2rxz.jpg" border="0" alt="" width="509" height="377"></a><br><a href="http://www.glitter-works.org">glitter-graphics.com</a></p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img src="http://dl.glitter-graphics.net/pub/989/989151u7g57ii216.jpg" border="0" alt="" width="451" height="226"></a><br><a href="http://www.glitter-works.org">glitter-graphics.com</a></p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img src="http://dl.glitter-graphics.net/pub/645/645981rbxz26my6e.jpg" border="0" alt="" width="235" height="376"></a><br><a href="http://www.glitter-works.org">glitter-graphics.com</a></p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img src="http://dl6.glitter-graphics.net/pub/431/431046cj0sj3ag1o.jpg" border="0" alt="" width="300" height="400"></a><br><a href="http://www.glitter-works.org">glitter-graphics.com</a></p> <p><a href="http://www.glitter-graphics.com"><img src="http://dl9.glitter-graphics.net/pub/271/271769ou3zkbqbfo.gif" border="0" alt="" width="100" height="100"></a></p> <p>Please stay around for forever...Because I promise to you that I will love you for the rest of my life.No crossing anything.I promise you my life!I want you around for the rest of my life,and never apart.Baby I love you,and don't ever want to bet you go.Your my true love,and my whole heart.Please don't throw that away.And don't ever walk away,and please tell me you'll stay...<br>I promise you that if ever the day comes(if you decide to keep me around)that I will stand up with you forever,be with you through it all,and never let you fell.Even if saving you sends me to heaven...I promise you my heart and soul last only for you now and forever.If ever the day comes and you ask one question.I wont hesitate.I may look at you with joy and cry with happiness.But I will not hesitate.I will answer yes,from the depths of my heart,to the tip top.I will always love you no matter what. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/24/love-him-4628867/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/faked-perfection-4573964/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T22:03:14+02:002008-08-11T22:03:14+02:00 <p>Perfect hair<br> Perfect body<br> Perfect friends<br> Perfect family<br> By one look at her anyone would think-perfect<br> She hangs out with the coolest crowds<br> She doesnt follow the trends, she starts them<br> Her smile can make you weak<br> All the guys love her<br> All the girls want to be just like her<br> But though she may have 'perfect' hair<br> A 'perfect' body<br> 'Perfect' friends<br> And a 'perfect' family<br> If you look into her eyes<br> You will see pure sadness<br> All of her perfection<br> Is a true coverup<br> To hide her pain<br> She hates her life<br> Yet she wont admit it to herself or others<br> She bottles up her feelings<br> Because if she lets them out....<br> She will no longer be perfect<br> So she found a way to let out her emotions<br> She cuts<br> At night she crys as she holds the razor blade to her wrist<br> Yet no one knows about this<br> So everyone still finds her perfect<br> She will wake up in the morning<br> Scars on her wrists<br> Eyes red from crying all night<br> And she will look in the mirror and say-I'm Perfect<br> She lies to herself to keep herself going<br> She dresses in long sleeve shirts<br> And before you know it all the girls wear long sleeves<br> Even though it is hot outside<br> And when she gets home from her 'perfect' day<br> She lifts the sleeve on her shirt<br> And stares down on her scars<br> Stares down at the words she has carved into herself<br> Hate<br> Death<br> Tears<br> Words that no one knows she carves into her 'perfect' body<br> Her parents think nothing is wrong<br> Her mom expects her to be perfect<br> Her mom buys her the clothes<br> Says how proud she is when her 'perfect' daughter gets another 'perfect' boyfriend<br> But does her mom know about what her 'perfect' daughter does with that boyfriend?<br> He forces her to do things she doesnt want to<br> But how can she say no?<br> If she says no, then he will tell people<br> And she will no longer be perfect<br> After her boyfriend is done with her<br> He leaves her lying there<br> Leaves her to go get another girl<br> When he leaves<br> She crys<br> She cuts some more<br> Tears mix with blood<br> And when she is done<br> She gets up<br> Goes to the mirror<br> And says-I'm Perfect<br> Her father couldnt give a care about his 'perfect' daughter<br> He has been cheating on his 'perfect' wife for years now<br> And he once cheated on his wife with one of his 'perfect' daughters friends<br> And every time she sees her father leave the house<br> Saying he has to go work late<br> Hate and rage fills her 'perfect' body<br> She looks at her naive mother who just smiles at her 'perfect' daughter<br> She smiles back, her 'perfect' smile<br> And she goes to her room<br> And she crys silently<br> And when her mom goes to bed<br> She pulls the razor from its hidin place<br> And she carves words of hate into her arm<br> And when her father comes home late at night<br> She crys more<br> And when she hears her father go to bed at 5 in the morning<br> She gets up<br> Goes to the mirror<br> And says-I'm Perfect<br> None of her friends know about her secret non-perfect life<br> They all think and strive to be as 'perfect' as she is<br> They think that her relationship is the model relationship<br> That she is perfectly content with her 'perfect' boyfriend<br> They think her life is pure perfection<br> That she never feels any other emotion other than happiness<br> Little do they know that if they just lift her sleeve they will find marks of unperfection<br> When she starts to gain some weight<br> Her 'perfect' body weighing more than 106 pounds<br> She starves herself<br> She can not afford to gain weight<br> Because then people will know<br> She is not perfect<br> When people start to get suspicious<br> She eats<br> But later goes to the bathroom and throws up her food<br> And she wipes her mouth<br> And looks in the mirror<br> And says- I'm Perfect<br> Months of this starving life<br> She is skin and bones<br> Girls start wishing to be as skinny as she is<br> They think since she is 'perfect'<br> That the only true way to be beautiful<br> Is to be stick skinny.....like her<br> When the pain of not eating<br> Or eating just to throw it all up<br> Becomes too great<br> She thinks of a way to black out from the pain<br> She sits in her room<br> Folds her sleeve up<br> Revealing the bloody scars<br> And as she wraps a cloth tight around her upper arm<br> She gently puts the needle into her skin<br> She closes her eyes as she shoots up drugs<br> Pulling the needle out<br> Untying the cloth<br> She stands up<br> Wobbly<br> And walks over to the mirror<br> And says- I'm Perfect<br> It doesnt take long for her to become addicted<br> It doesnt take long for the drugs to start losing their effects<br> It doesnt take long for her to start stealing her parents credit cards<br> To buy more drugs<br> And soon she turns to drinking<br> One beer at first<br> No harm done<br> But soon she starts hiding liquor in her room<br> In her locker<br> And drinking all the time<br> And everytime she gets drunk<br> She stumbles into the bathroom<br> Looks into the mirror<br> And slurs- I'm Perfect<br> It doesnt take long for her to become addicted<br> And it doesnt take long for it to become difficult<br> Difficult to hide her real life<br> Her 'perfection' seems to dim as her weight drops<br> As bags form under her eyes<br> As she shakes whenever she isnt drinking or taking drugs<br> From her paranoia about life<br> From the way she walks<br> From the way she talks<br> Her friends start leaving<br> Her mom gets worried<br> Even her dad notices<br> Rumors start flying<br> But all the rumors are true<br> And one day<br> While she sits at home<br> Doing drugs<br> With a bottle of liquor sitting next to her<br> Her parents walk in<br> She trys to hide what she is doing<br> Its too late<br> Her mom is crying<br> Her dad is trying to hide his emotions<br> A lady<br> In a suit<br> Walks in after her parents<br> Takes the hand of the 'perfect' girl<br> And says-<br> Its time for you to get help<br> All the girl can think its<br> How she doesnt need help<br> She is 'perfect'<br> If she gets help<br> Everyone will know that she isnt 'perfect'<br> But the truth is<br> That everyone already knows<br> She is sent to rehab<br> Where she shakes all the time<br> Where she starts hearing voices<br> Telling her to get out<br> Telling her to cut herself<br> Telling her to drink<br> Telling her not to eat<br> Telling her to get her needle and shoot up her drugs<br> But most importantly<br> Telling her that she is Perfect</p> <p>Perfection is not real<br> Perfection can not happen<br> Those who tell themselves that they are perfect<br> Those who tell others that they are perfect<br> Are lying<br> Are covering up their insecurities<br> They might not be heading for the same fate<br> But they are lying none the less<br> It is those of us<br> Who admit<br> That we arent perfect<br> In any sense of the word<br> That we have problems<br> That we mess up<br> That we cry<br> That we get angry<br> That our parents arent perfect<br> That our relationships<br> Arent perfect<br> That our friends<br> Arent perfect<br> When we admit that we arent perfect<br> When we admit that we have problems<br> We dont have to hide ourselves<br> We dont have to keep up an act<br> We can never be perfect<br> But we can work towards being better people<br> Because faked perfection<br> Is the farthest thing from real perfection </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/faked-perfection-4573964/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/a-heart-of-glass-4573960/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T22:02:23+02:002008-08-11T22:02:23+02:00 <p>I found a heart of glass,<br> hidden among hearts of stone.</p> <p>Behold the heart of glass,<br> never to be alone.</p> <p>Admire the heart of glass,<br> as it glitters and it shines.</p> <p>Revere the heart of glass,<br> glistening so divine.</p> <p>So fragile is the heart of glass,<br> if touched it would break.</p> <p>So afraid is the heart of glass,<br> that it would one day be foresake.</p> <p>Pity the heart of glass,<br> as it secretly sheds barbed tears.</p> <p>Ignore the heart of glass,<br> chipping through the years.</p> <p>Cry for the heart of glass,<br> for it has shattered in forlorn.</p> <p>Never to be reborn,<br> Beware a heart of glass... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/a-heart-of-glass-4573960/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/pandora-s-box-4573957/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T22:01:44+02:002008-08-11T22:01:44+02:00 <p>Sealed up tight<br> Taped and boxed<br> Without function<br> Without cost<br> Sitting farthest from the sun<br> Like a child's toy abandoned<br> Collecting dust just out of place<br> Without a name without a face<br> The soul of me kept out of reach<br> In sterile captivity it sleeps<br> Comatose<br> As if someone mauled it<br> Stiff and frigid<br> As if frozen solid<br> Concealed inside that space confined<br> Never knowing love<br> Never being defined<br> Dark and inappropriate<br> No one cares to look for it<br> Or even approach it in its case<br> Locked away in midnight space<br> Sleeping for a thousand years<br> Through a thousand wrongs<br> A thousand tears<br> Waiting for something slight<br> To open this box and give it light<br> No one cares to break the chains<br> Nurture this hope<br> Dissolve this shame<br> No one cares to touch my soul<br> And free it from darknes's control<br> Fear creates them paralyzed<br> Afraid of what would come from inside<br> And so it sits a thousand years<br> Through darkest blame<br> Consumed in fear<br> Taped and boxed<br> Sealed up tight<br> My soul pushed farthest from the light<br> Collecting dust just out of place<br> Without love without a face<br> Without function<br> Without cost<br> My soul locked in Pandora's box<br> Forever waiting for something slight<br> To unlock the box and breathe me to life </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/pandora-s-box-4573957/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/what-you-see-4573953/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T22:01:12+02:002008-08-11T22:01:12+02:00 <p>-I am who I am<br> -But you cant handle me<br> -I do the best I can,<br> -To try and make you see...</p> <p> -Im still your little girl<br> -Just a bit grown up<br> -Trying to find myself in this world,<br> -While keeping my head up...</p> <p> -I may have changed,<br> -Over the years<br> -A new style, rearranged<br> -Causing you more tears...</p> <p> -I can still be your little girl<br> -Even if I wear black<br> -Im growing in this world<br> -Its perfection, I lack...</p> <p> -I cant be perfect<br> -I'm filled with flaws<br> -Im still worth it<br> -After all...</p> <p> -I need you to love me,<br> -For what I can be<br> -Not hate me,<br> -For what you see... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/what-you-see-4573953/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/hate-is-deeper-4573948/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T22:00:35+02:002008-08-11T22:00:35+02:00 <p>A tourtured mind<br> A blackened soul<br> A voice so kind<br> Take the toll</p> <p>A dark room<br> A shiney blade<br> Nothing to do<br> But hide in the shade</p> <p>A painful night<br> A scream of pain<br> A lonely fight<br> The blood will drain</p> <p>A shattered life<br> A bruised face<br> Take the knife<br> And leave this place</p> <p>Fake a smile<br> Tell a lie<br> In a while<br> You will cry</p> <p>Sewed up lips<br> Taped up eyes<br> Heart that skips<br> Girl that cries</p> <p>Rain of red<br> Clouds of white<br> Pain instead,<br> of lonely fright</p> <p>Scary dreams<br> Dont wake up<br> Not what it seems<br> Full of love</p> <p>Slowly breathe<br> The sent of death<br> What you need<br> You've always kept</p> <p>Tear filled eyes<br> Look so sad<br> Hate filled lies<br> Turn to bad</p> <p>Watch it burn<br> Orange and red<br> It's your turn<br> So go ahead</p> <p>Live your life<br> In fear of me<br> Take the knife<br> And you will see</p> <p>The cuts are deep<br> The pain is deeper<br> death will creep<br> And find a keeper</p> <p>Sing a song<br> Of sad good-bye's<br> Move along<br> No more lies</p> <p>Tell the truth<br> Fix the lie<br> Give them proof<br> Of what's inside</p> <p>Love is hate<br> Hate's the keeper<br> Find the place<br> Where hate is deeper </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/hate-is-deeper-4573948/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/my-heart-bleeds-4573940/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:59:44+02:002008-08-11T21:59:44+02:00 <p>My heart bleeds black<br> because we want you back<br> My tears run blue<br> When I am really missing you<br> My eyes turn grey<br> when I remember that day<br> My sanity is gone<br> unless I hear our song<br> My ears always ring<br> because I hear you sing<br> I think it isn't true<br> that I am hearing you<br> I listen closer still<br> to find that it is real<br> You always made me smile<br> but now you've been gone awhile<br> Your headstone has been set<br> and that's what I don't get<br> When certain songs begin to play<br> your voice is never far away<br> Even though I do not see<br> you still sing with me<br> And even though no one hears<br> it still brings me to tears<br> So is it my mind hearing things<br> or is it what it seems<br> Do you still sing to me<br> can it even be<br> Did my heart make it so<br> since you had to go<br> Did my heart make the choice<br> for me to hear your voice<br> Or is it your way of letting me know<br> that you really didn't go<br> and we'll never really be apart<br> because you are in my heart </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/my-heart-bleeds-4573940/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/you-owe-me-a-heart-4573933/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:58:47+02:002008-08-11T21:58:47+02:00 <p>I gave you my heart<br> and I trusted you.<br> to protect it<br> to love it<br> to never let it shatter.<br> But you took it,<br> and you broke it.<br> Like it made no difference that I loved you.<br> that I needed you<br> that I'd bleed for you<br> and I'd defend you<br> to the end...<br> You appoligized,<br> but still,<br> appologizies aren't thread.<br> They won't sew my heart back together.<br> There's no use in trying.<br> But you handed it back to me anyway<br> with tears in your eyes,<br> and it helped.<br> Because I still loved you,<br> even without a heart...<br> though, I admit...<br> it was definitely hard...<br> to make myself stop crying...<br> I told you that you owe me one.<br> A new heart.<br> One that's not so cracked..<br> or patched..<br> or broken..<br> A good one.<br> a whole one.<br> And you just looked at me,<br> confused,<br> unsure of what to do.<br> So I took it apon myself<br> to fix our little problem.<br> I tossed you a reassuring smile,<br> and I ripped out your heart.<br> It's much bigger than mine.<br> I like it more.<br> I'd call it a fair trade.<br> To an extent, anyway.<br> if we don't account for pain.<br> But please, don't worry, love.<br> I'll take care not to break it.<br> Not to hurt you<br> like you hurt me.<br> Because I love you<br> with all my heart...<br> with all your heart....<br> And now at least I know that you're mine.<br> and only mine.<br> It get's me throught the day ? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/you-owe-me-a-heart-4573933/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/emo-4573922/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:56:50+02:002008-08-11T21:56:50+02:00 <p>This mask I wear,<br> she serves me well,<br> she hides my pain,<br> so they can't tell.</p> <p>They see her smile,<br> never my tears,<br> she shows no sorrow,<br> she fights all my fears.</p> <p>They believe she is me,<br> if only they knew,<br> that she is my mask,<br> my saviour too.</p> <p>My scars she hides,<br> behind laughter and lies,<br> she say's she is fine,<br> but slowly she dies. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/emo-4573922/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/because-of-you-4573919/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:56:17+02:002008-08-11T21:56:17+02:00 <p>Because of you I'm stronger and I'm weaker<br> Because of you I smile more and I cry less<br> Because of you I know how to live and how to die<br> Because of you I know myself more</p> <p>Your my sweetest dream and my worst nightmare<br> My candy coated addiction and my most sour treat<br> The most sugary kiss and the most bitter<br> My elixir and my poison<br> My guardian angel along with my darkest demon</p> <p>My everything...and suddenly...my nothing... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/because-of-you-4573919/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/a-look-of-4573912/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:55:27+02:002008-08-11T21:55:46+02:00 <p>Trapped in this brazened maze<br> Of rash insecurities<br> Lost dreamscape musings and<br> False identities</p> <p>Laced with scars and poison of<br> A detrimental kind<br> Beaten down and broken in this<br> God-forsaken mind</p> <p>Twisted paths and torture find<br> A child, lost to its sight<br> Succumbing to a deathly will<br> And nightly mid-day frights</p> <p>Tip-toeing ever slightly through a<br> Downbeat trodden lane<br> Witnessing the rebirth of<br> Life, now lived in vain</p> <p>Chosen are the many who<br> Understand the few<br> And through the choices of the making<br> None will ever do</p> <p>A nightmare landscape drawn into<br> A crayon matinee<br> Ethereal figures, daunting odds<br> And though, come what may </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/a-look-of-4573912/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/she-s-all-sewn-apart-4573909/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:54:38+02:002008-08-11T21:54:38+02:00 <p>Her skin made of cloth, she's all sewn apart.<br> A rip down the middle of her cold,cold, heart.<br> She saw you with another girl, remembering wanting to kill herself.<br> She took all the things that resemble you off her shelf.<br> Tears pouring down her face,<br> nothing left of you, not even a trace.</p> <p>She wasn't good enough, she said.<br> A million thoughts running through her head.<br> Your sweet touch is what she will miss,<br> though she turns over to the blade's sweet kiss.<br> I thought he loved me, she tried not to scream & yell.<br> Now her whole word was turning into hell.</p> <p>How could he do this to me?<br> How much better is she?<br> Was she that much prettier,<br> that he couldn't stand having me instead of her?<br> All of those thoughts ran wildly through her mind,<br> as he so easily left her behind.</p> <p>She thought their relationship was good,<br> how easily she misunderstood.<br> As she thought what he was doing now,<br> she still wondered, how?<br> How could he do that to her?<br> Her skin made of cloth, she's all sewn apart. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/she-s-all-sewn-apart-4573909/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/this-is-my-life-4573898/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:52:38+02:002008-08-11T21:52:38+02:00 <p>People say my life is great<br> But they don't know how much I hate<br> How when they cry it's just fine<br> But when I'm sad it's a crime<br> They really don't know how I feel<br> How anyone can break the seal<br> That runs across my broken heart<br> How I try to climb the chart<br> I'm a loner<br> And I know<br> That I should really never show<br> My feelings for that one person<br> That I love<br> Because I can die with a shove<br> Break apart if I open my eyes<br> I can die from someone half my size<br> I know it all I don't need you<br> To remind me what I can't do<br> Everything here isn't a lie<br> Sometimes it's so bad I want to die<br> My friends truely don't care<br> They make fun of my short hair<br> They don't except that I am not<br> Like them and that I get caught<br> Up in things I really shouldn't<br> Because in the end I really couldn't<br> Be someone that they could call<br> When they go trip and fall<br> No one cares how I feel<br> That's how it is<br> It won't change<br> Because this is my life<br> The life of a girl<br> Who has no friends<br> The life of a girl who tries to pretend<br> That she's not sad<br> When people are mad<br> The life of a girl who runs and hides<br> Sits in the dark and does nothing but cry<br> Everything you see is true<br> What does my life seem to you<br> Do you live a life like me<br> If you don't know you see<br> That it's not what it seems to be<br> But I can't change it<br> I'll stay the same<br> Because that's what's ment to be<br> It's the life I lead<br> It is me </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/this-is-my-life-4573898/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/shadows-4573897/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:52:09+02:002008-08-11T21:52:09+02:00 <p>Shadow of doubt<br> Shadow of fear<br> where no haven lives<br> where danger is near</p> <p>Shadow of fear<br> Shadow of night<br> where nothing is real<br> and where answers are lies</p> <p>Shadow of night<br> Shadow of tears<br> where light is limited<br> where casted night leers</p> <p>Shadow of tears<br> Shadow of dark<br> where the shattered stirs<br> where we gathered broken hearts</p> <p>Shadow of light<br> where nothing calls<br> where hope rises<br> and tears fall </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/shadows-4573897/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/i-wont-turn-out-like-you-4573887/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:49:57+02:002008-08-11T21:49:57+02:00 <p>I know you can't hear me, Dad,<br> But I have something to say.<br> You never loved me,<br> Not once on any day.</p> <p>You loved my sister, Dad,<br> Don't tell me it's not true.<br> You loved Alex,<br> But I used to love you.</p> <p>I thought you were the greatest, Dad,<br> I thought you'd never leave.<br> But I guess I was stupid then,<br> I guess I didn't see.</p> <p>I tried so hard to be like you, Dad,<br> But it just made me sick.<br> I can't be the way you were.<br> I don't know what made you tick.</p> <p>I can't be a sick freak, Dad,<br> I can't play your little "games".<br> I can't get close to people now,<br> I'll never be the same.</p> <p>You said that I was weak, Dad,<br> But I'm not like you.<br> I'm better than that,<br> I wish that you were too.</p> <p>But it's too late now, Dad,<br> You and Mom are gone.<br> You drove her crazy,<br> She put up with you for too long.</p> <p>She used to be nice, Dad,<br> I wasn't afraid of her.<br> She tried to love me,<br> Now it's all a blur.</p> <p>She picked up your habits, Dad,<br> She became a drunk.<br> The more I had to see,<br> The more my heart sunk.</p> <p>They say forgive and forget, Dad,<br> But that's something I can't do.<br> The only thing that helps me sleep at night,<br> Is that I know I won't turn out like you. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/i-wont-turn-out-like-you-4573887/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/the-greatest-tragedy-4573879/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:49:18+02:002008-08-11T21:49:18+02:00 <p>She tends to sit alone<br> And travel by herself,<br> She doesn't know why she's left out<br> Not wanted by anyone else.<br> She tends to cry herself to sleep<br> For reasons only known to her;<br> She wants to scream her pain<br> But knows it's not worth it.</p> <p>It's the tears that she cries<br> It's the pain that she hides<br> It's the story we tell of how she dies<br> Of the Greatest Tragedy.</p> <p>She wants to fall in love<br> With someone who will want her,<br> She doesn't know why she's always brokenhearted<br> When she sees him with another<br> She tends to want to hurt hserlf<br> For reasons only known to her<br> She wants to end the pain<br> But knows it's not worth it.</p> <p>It's the tears that she cries<br> It's the pain that she hides<br> It's the story we tell of how she wants to die<br> Of the Greatest Tragedy.</p> <p>She's hurt enough<br> They take it rough<br> Drunk they will abuse her<br> Sober they will deny her<br> She's cried enough<br> They will not stop<br> YOU CALL YOURSELF PARENTS!</p> <p>The tears she cries...<br> The pain she hides...<br> She slowly dies...<br> Of the Greatest Tragedy.</p> <p>She's all tattered up and bruised<br> Both physically and emotionally<br> She's reached the breaking point<br> Everything ends tonight.<br> She reaches for the knife<br> As she closes her eyes<br> She has no one to apologize to<br> With one final tear, she ends her life.</p> <p>It's the tears she cried<br> It's the pain she tried to hide<br> It's the story we tell of how she died<br> Of the Greatest Tragedy </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/the-greatest-tragedy-4573879/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/love-your-dead-lover-4573869/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:48:11+02:002008-08-11T21:48:11+02:00 <p>They wont find me strangled<br> They won't find me hung<br> But they will find me heartbroken<br> A song once sung</p> <p>The blood on the floor<br> wont be from wrist<br> But from my heart<br> and the lips you once kissed</p> <p>They will all know<br> that you killed me<br> From the letter in my hand<br> that they all will see</p> <p>It reads:<br> You were my only<br> My one true love<br> It was pure and beautiful<br> like a new born dove</p> <p>My love lasted forever<br> but yours faded fast<br> I should have known<br> that it would never last</p> <p>Now I'm alone<br> and you are with her<br> I quess when it come to love<br> you can never be sure</p> <p>I couldn't take the pain<br> I hated to suffer<br> So I end this letter<br> Love,<br> Your Dead Lover </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/love-your-dead-lover-4573869/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/rain-4573865/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:47:34+02:002008-08-11T21:47:34+02:00 <p>She walks<br> You can't help but stare<br> She's misrable<br> It's not fair<br> She can't live without him there<br> It's a tragedy<br> She's broken<br> Nobody can save her<br> She's lost<br> Nobody can help her<br> She's distant<br> We can't bring her back<br> She's lonely<br> Her heart is empty<br> She falls through time<br> Hope is lost<br> She's gone<br> All is lost<br> The rain falls<br> She is fading<br> The rain falls<br> She's a memory<br> We can't save her<br> She's nothing<br> We can't help her<br> She is broken<br> She's lost<br> She's almost not there<br> We stand and stare<br> While the rain falls. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/rain-4573865/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/i-am-fading-away-my-love-4573864/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:46:57+02:002008-08-11T21:46:57+02:00 <p>I try so hard to hold on to my dreams,<br> But its grip gets looser by the second,<br> I hear it's whispers that keep me alive,<br> Fade away silently into the past.</p> <p>Time is passing fast ,<br> Like the wind through the trees,<br> And the soft sweet sound of your voice,<br> Is slowly turning into harsh tragedies<br> Of broken violas and violins.</p> <p>Every breath I have breathed for you,<br> Is fading away like the memories,<br> And every melody that I have sang for you,<br> Is turning into lifeless lyrics with a tune<br> That no longer mean you.</p> <p>The heavy anchor that was cought tight to me,<br> Kept me drowning in your water,<br> And kept me strong and in place<br> Is not untieing by it's self,<br> And letting me rise above.</p> <p>If my desperate screams<br> Can't open your eyes,<br> But if a strangers quiet words can,<br> Then I have already fought enough<br> In an invisible and impossible battle I couldn't win.</p> <p>And if you'd be soo foolish,<br> And not even take a glimpse,<br> By what's before you,<br> I will fade away with the breeze,<br> And you will never get a hold of me again. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/i-am-fading-away-my-love-4573864/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:the-cheshire-cat.blog.co.uk,2008-08-11:/2008/08/11/all-i-will-ever-know-4573853/The-Cheshire-Cat2008-08-11T21:44:49+02:002008-08-11T21:44:49+02:00 <p>Kittens in the rain,<br> birds with broken wings.<br> Let me tell you all,<br> about my favourite things.</p> <p>Hair in matted strings,<br> cheeks that gather tears.<br> My favourite things,<br> are your basic fears.</p> <p>Inaccurately cut hedges,<br> flowers drowned in mud.<br> Knives with sharp edges,<br> skinstained with blood.</p> <p>Eyes bloodshot and red.<br> Dismantled car parts.<br> A self-destructing head.<br> Firmly broken hearts.</p> <p>Cloudy cold days.<br> Thoughts of suicide:<br> A million different ways,<br> some of which I've tried.</p> <p>Fumes on which we choke.<br> Air we never breath.<br> China dolls that broke.<br> Hopes you'd never leave.</p> <p>Ticks that have been crossed.<br> Some elements of hell.<br> Boys whose souls got lost<br> and girls who never tell.</p> <p>Bloody fights in a back street.<br> Things that just aren't true.<br> The good people we never meet<br> and the bad one's we do.</p> <p>Sickness and disease.<br> Dangerous mental health.<br> Non-existent keys,<br> to open up myself.</p> <p>Slightly dirty white jeans.<br> Thoughts that are impure.<br> Not knowing what it means.<br> Why I can't find my cure.</p> <p>Lights that are too bright.<br> The fake best friend.<br> Jumping up to fight,<br> to fall at the end.</p> <p>A boy who won't admit,<br> she's got him in a spin.<br> A girl that doesn't fit,<br> in the world she ended in.</p> <p>Nooses, pills and blades.<br> All the faces of the dead.<br> Colour that slowly fades,<br> with a gun shot to the head.</p> <p>Blood and slow death.<br> Letting yourself drown.<br> Trying not to think of death,<br> but slowly sinking down.</p> <p>I know I can't repair too,<br> but I don't want you to go.<br> I'm sorry if I scare you,<br> but this is all I know. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://The-Cheshire-Cat.blog.co.uk/2008/08/11/all-i-will-ever-know-4573853/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>